wednesday morning

things much more in control- got my pills, started packing last night, went for a walk this morning. need to dry clean sleeping bag. tried to sleep in it last night and it was itchy. that was something i don't think i worried about. see?
lesson learned:
don't worry

2/22

woke up too late for my walk. so tired last night, but then couldn't sleep. anxious about upcoming trip. useless because:worrying about forgetting something means i won't be thinking about what to bring clearly and i will forget something; worried about rain(also useless, either will or won't); being cold; making a fool of myself; arguing with teach(i've never met) about shoes, cameras, being constipated, my midnight pee run, etc etc etc. also, my pill taking has been irregular, so that might be a part of it (really, dawn?). must pick up meds today and cant figure out when, try and sneak out of work a little early. shold have been organizing this weekend, but didn't (wiped out from food poisoning, mom here on sunday).. argggggghhhh!  on the other hand----healthy food, yay!

after the break

rain and 3 day sickness has meant no walking. 7 pounds lost. 3 miles in 1 hr 3 minutes this morning. not bad after 3 days on the couch. legs feel really good, no hip displasia, no blsters on feet, toes are cool, back feels better. pomegranite smoothie for breakfast, oranges, sushi for lunch. lots to do this week.

saturday morning

obvious i have somewhat lost my commitment here. del taco yesterday, why do i have such a problem with this shit? argh!!!!!

friday

woke up too late to walk :( am actually bummed. my legs are raring and ready to go. good breakfast, lunch and dinner yesterday. took my iron this morning. planning on bb, fruit today. yardwork tomorrow. try and walk tonight, but must make time for hw. sigh.

2/10/11

woo-hoo.. 2 miles in 50 minutes, haha, 10 minutes off my previous time. yes, i know, a 20 min. mile sucks, bite me. bb for breakfast yesterday, 1/2 can tuna for lunch (lentils too salty, inedible), sunflower seeds all afternoon (gave me a toothache), mac and cheese for dinner (yes, the whole box). still feeling good. too much coffee after 5, couldn't fall asleep. hard to get up this morning, but i did it anyway (personal victory). also, blisters on feet, working on toughening them up- this weekend goal-walk somewhere with sand and/or pebbles/rocks.
goals today:
healthy breakfast, healthy lunch, healthy dinner
take some iron
ace my test

wednesday morning

k, didn't reach my goals yesterday- no walk, del taco for breakfast, yogurt w/bluberries for lunch, sunflower seeds snack, 1 1/2 honey bbq sandwiches from kfc, 1 bowl kashi, 1 bowl captain crunch, 4 inches turkey summer sausage plus crackers. i was starving last night. came home, did dishes, cooked up some lentils and some breakfast bars. so today - 3 mile walk in 1 hr 5 min, bb for breakfast, lentils plus tuna for lunch, sunflower seeds for snack. dinner? no idea. also, taking iron supplements again-energy up.

2/8/11

dang, i suck. absolutely horrible at sticking to plans :)  ah well. my eating is better than it was last month, still horrible, but i am more mindful. i probably would've lost weight except for some binge sugar eating last weekend. yesterday i started walking in the mornings, but i am really worn down, really really. weeding on Saturday took a lot out of me (although i don't think it should've, i am just that out of shape.) anyway, 2 miles yesterday morning. helped with the soreness, but i crashed last night and woke up late this morning. lunch and breakfast were good (cliff bar and ceviche and a banana, respectively). falling down into a depression hole mostly. more and more depressed. i am actively trying to fight it. i think the sugar was a big culprit. have been trying to engage J in conversation, talk to others, etc., but i'm falling. no happiness in my life. so goals:
no more sugar binges
healthy lunch and breakfast today
make conversation
go for a walk before class.