wednesday night

still a wee bit depressed, nothing bad, but having a hard time feeling positive and motivated. vegan bars for breakfast, mediterranean chicken salad for lunch, taco salad for dinner, mixed berry/pom/yogurt smoothie, i square chocolate. lunch with a friend today, felt really uncommunicative and out-of-touch. nothing to say really. school starts tomorrow, still havent bought a book, 1st time ever i'm showing up unprepared(self-destruction?). having a hard time working at work, so bored and unmotivated and feeling swamped. maybe just pms. no reason at all to feel like this, just loneliness dragging me down. tired of spinning wheels-scared of change. feeling totally uncapable more like. what else would i do? still so trapped.